it is so nice to know that someone you like alot..likes you back...
it is nice to dream and your dream comes true...
it is nice to be suprised and find out the suprize is some thing you wanted all your life
and finally it is nice to feel that some one thinks about you..and cares...

I am soooo happy today..I get to learn how to master our million years old GC!!!!!getting a clean solvent peak!!and finally on monday I can get the result I was waiting for nearly 4 month!!!Dr. Roy has told me that there is position at McGill;)and they are waiting for me to decide!!!!to go or not to go that is a question..the only reason why I would want to go is to learn French;)but other than that I am not sure if Master's degree would do me any good in that field;).......its so frustrating to want to start your life and then realize that it's not going to a right direction..but I don't even know any more where I should go...after all who is to say that someways are right and some are not...
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love is buying some one you admire a sord after watching Last Samouri movie;)

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JOSH GROBAN is my new discoveries:)his lyrics and his voice is wonderful:)

You're Still You

Through the darkness
I can see your light
And you will always shine
And I can feel your heart in mine
Your face I've memorized
I idolize just you

I look up to
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong
I've loved you for so long
And after all is said and done
You're still you
After all
You're still you

You walk past me
I can feel your pain
Time changes everything
One truth always stays the same
You're still you
After all
You're still you

I look up to
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong
And I believe in you
Although you never asked me to
I will remember you
And what life put you through

And in this cruel and lonely world
I found one love
You're still you
After all
You're still you

-23C.....................we live in a *freezer;).....ouch...layers and layers of clothing:)....

*=Canada

one of my minor wishes just came true:)
thank you God...I just hope it continues to the major ones...
Time will solve the problems and will uncover

still sick!!!!!!!!!!!damn it...I have to do some experiments before my prof comes back to Toronto...
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Suzi: if its meant to be..it will happen...I strongly beilieve in that..
Me: I hope so...its yet to be uncover...

Sarah Mclachlan is one of the greatest:)her lyrics are fantastic..
Perfect Girl

Am I faithful, am I strong, am I good enough to belong
in your reverie a perfect girl
Your vision of romance is cruel and all along I played the fool
all your expectations bury me

Dont worry you will find the answer if you let it go
give yourself some time to falter
But dont forgo knowing that youre loved no matter what
and everything will come around in time

I own my insecurities I try to own my destiny
That I can make or break it if I choose
But you take my words and twist them around till I'm the one who brings you down
Make me feel like I'm the one to blame for all of this

You need everybody with you on your side
Know that I am here for you but I hope in time
Youll find yourself allright alone
Youll find yourself with open arms
Youll find yourself youll find yourself in time

The riot in my heart decides to keep me open and alive
I have to take myself away from you
cause I cant compete I cant deny there's nothing that I didnt try
how did I go wrong in loving you

since sunday I have been having a cold such that I couldn't stay at work anymore and had to come home in the middle of the day!!I think the whole fundraising week and being in the cold weather has done its work..I have headaches:(oops I just realized I didn't email the the TOF-SIMS prof!!oh my post doc partner will kill me tomorrow..There is a shampoo commercial on TV nowadays that is very funny..if you hadn't watched it from the beginning and do not look at it but listen you would think its describing history of a relationship;)..here how it starts..when you first try a new shampoo you fall in love with it..the honeymoon is still good but the more days passes by(they show the calender) you begin to find issues and basically by the end of the month you just will change it;) the only problem with this commercial is that the theme is so interesteing that it actually affects the name of the product..I can't remember its name!!!!!;)
Anyways..its amazing how some people can boost your energy..I have a friend who is studying medicine in US..and I talk to him often on MSN..he is one of those people who you don't want finish conversations with..he is one of the people I respect and love..I wish him great success and know that he would become some one great in near future in his career although he is pretty great to me..I know that he respects me and likes me..but I don't know to what degree...I wish I could be more than friends with him...he has the greatest sence of humor and he teases you in the most polite way:)he is great..need I say more...

Yesterday was another fundraising event for the earthquake relief fund...it was 6 of us and about $1500 was gathered...we are going to continue today as well and I think today is going to be the last day of these types of fundraising. I hope that this money actually get to the people of Bam. I can;t beilieve that the holidays are over and I have to go to work tomorrow:(...but I kinda miss my co-workers..but a major paper is waiting for me...life is going to become normal as it was before the holidays..this past two weeks have been full of good and bad events that seems like a century to me...from the proposal, to earthquake and cancer and meeting new people and a whole lot of dreaming of what ifs....but all this made me think about my life..that I am definately not ready to get married since I am not in love with anyone..that I want to do something humaniterian for sure along the way of my life...that people are not what they seem to be even the ones you think are hounest...and that life can change in a blink of an eye....so treasure it...CARPE DIEM...as always